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lotz2bluvd  

I am so lost

Hey everyone! My name is Jessica, Im 22 and I am so freaking lost... I have been married for 4yrs and have a beautiful little girl that depends on me.. My husband has abused me and I cant take it anymore.. I want to leave but I have no where to go! I just want to be free! I am so tired of crying myself to sleep at night. I dont know what I am looking for, All I know is that, I dont know how I let it get this far... I dont want to leave my apartment, but he wont leave! I dont have a job, but I am looking! Im tired of coving up burses and nail marks on my neck and face. I really dont know where or what I can do the mental and physical abuse is driving me to depression and I want to be the best I can for my daughter! Please help me! Weather it is just to talk to me that would be great..
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Anonymous  

hopelessness

Sitting in the cold afaid of who is out here and online with cell phone not
Sure if we can ever get help
Crying right now life is sad in this world
We are about to give up all hope : (
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allenroe82  

About allenroe82

I am a 28 year old male Soldier stationed at Fort Bragg, North Carolina with four daughters, all under the age of 8.  My wife just recently received Gastric Bypass surgery and will be temporarily out of work while she recovers.  This really hurt us financially, because she is part of the head of household.  If someone could please provide me assistance for the next 3 months, it would be greatly appreciated.  Thank you and God Bless!

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Vladsval  

Hurting

I am permanantly disabled due to spinal damage. My teeth are in very bad shape too.  I live (if you can call it that) on a very very low fixed income. I have tried time and time again to post my pleas for help (DigitalCharity.com only succeeded in having scam artists contact me, one of which left me in worse shape than before). I live in constant physical and emotional pain. I have lost all faith in others due to the fact that no one who contacted me genuinely cared and only left me feeling sick and used. I wish someone could help me, there are nights I go to bed and wish I wouldn't wake up the next day to have to face more pain and  hardship.
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Starbl00d  

About Starbl00d

 I'm writing this for my mom. She needs help. My Dad passed away not too long ago due to hospital mistakes- which they of course denied when she tried ot sue them for malpractice (they punctured his colon during a temperature reading and he died of sepsis. they later said they had on way of knowing what nurse worked with what beds..bull!) Before he got sick, I moved to New Zealand. I went back to see him before he died. My sister and my brother are still in the USA, but they have utterly betrayed my Mom and taken out credit cards in her name. They ruined her good credit rating and refuse to work with her, or even take her calls. She is all alone,now with bad credit. She is disabled and unable to work. There is no money, and most months she only has about $20 after bills to use for food. All she gets is a little of my Dad's old payment-not nearly enough. she's all alone and I'm far away- and unable tofind a job as a foreigner in a strange country so I cannot help her. She's had a stroke and the doctors said if she has another she won't make it. I can't bear the thought of losing them both! I just know a little bit of cash will help her.

 Me, my son, and my mom

 

 

My dad, asleep, about a month before he passed

 He was already sick, but unconfirmed. He was diagnosed with tongue and throat cancer, but it was cut out. The clinic then gave him a flu shot while he was undergoing chemo, and he got very ill. He died in the hospital.

 

"AROUND THE FIRST WEEK OF JUNE, 2007, HE WENT TO GET A BIOPSY DONE TO CONFIRM IF HE HAD CANCER. HE DID.
HE GOT SURGERY AROUND THE MIDDLE OF JULY TO REMOVE IT FROM HIS THROAT AND TONGUE. IT WAS SUCCESSFUL AND THE ONLY PROBLEM WAS THAT HE WAS UNABLE TO SPEAK OR EAT,AND HAD TO USE A TUBE.
IN OCTOBER HE WENT FOR A CHECKUP, AND THE CLINIC GAVE HIM A FLU SHOT EVEN THOUGH HE WAS UNDERGOING CHEMO.NOW I HAVE BEEN TOLD CONFLICTING STORIES-I HAVE HEARD THAT'S OK AND I HAVE HEARD THAT IS A HUGE NO-NO TO GIVE THAT TO PEOPLE GOING THROUGH CHEMO. I BELIEVE THE LATTER. ANYWAYS,HE PASSED OUT,GREW WEAK. HE WENT FROM DRIVING AND FISHING AND BASICALLY BEING NORMAL TO BEDRIDDEN.
I WENT TO SEE HIM IN NOVEMBER AND WATCHED AS HE GREW STEADILY WORSE. BY DECEMBER HE HAD BEEN LIVING IN THE HOSPITAL, I WAS HOPING HE WOULD GET BETTER BUT THINGS LOOKED VERY GRIM-ESPECIALLY AS HE COULD NOT EAT OR HOLD DOWN ANY FOOD, AND HE LOST MORE AND MORE WEIGHT.
THEN,ONE MORNING HE WOKE UP (AT HOME,FINALLY...HE WAS SO HAPPY TO BE GETTING OUT OF THE HOSPITAL HE WAS THANKING EVERYONE AND SMILING LIKE HE HAD NEVER SEEN THE SUN BEFORE. I WAS GLAD HE DID NOT DIE BEFORE FEELING THE SUNLIGHT ON HIS FACE,AT LEAST ONE MORE TIME.) AND COULD NOT FEEL HIS RIGHT LEG. WE HAD TO GO RIGHT BACK TO THE HOSPITAL,WHERE HE WAS TOLD HE WAS PROBABLY GOING TO HAVE TO HAVE IT CUT OFF. I WANTED TO CRY FOR HIM SO BAD. HE HAD ALWAYS BEEN SO ACTIVE AND HAPPY.
WHILE WE WERE AT THE EMERGENCY ROOM,HE SUDDENLY LOST CONTROL OF HIS BOWELS AND POOPED HIMSELF ABOUT 5 TIMES IN A ROW. FOR SOME REASON HE COULD NOT HOLD IT,WHICH WAS UNLIKE HIM. LATER ON, WE FOUND OUT THAT WHEN THE NURSE HAD TAKEN HIS TEMPERATURE RECTALLY, SHE ACTUALLY PUNCHED A HOLE IN HIS COLON, AND HE WAS LEAKING WASTES INTO HIS STOMACH.
HE ENDED UP HAVING TO GET A COLONOSCOPY, AND THEN AN AMPUTATION.SO IN A MATTER OF A FEW MONTHS HE NOT ONLY LOST THE ABILITY TO EAT OR DRINK, HE ALSO LOST HIS LEG AND ANY INDEPENDENCE HE HAD. OVER THE NEXT FEW WEEKS HE WAS IN SO MUCH PAIN, HE LOST INTEREST IN LIFE. FINALLY HE TOLD US TO STOP ALL THE TREATMENTS AND TO JUST LET HIM DIE. HE SAID HE HURT TOO MUCH AND HE DIDN'T WANT TO LIVE ANY MORE. CAN YOU IMAGINE WHAT THAT IS LIKE?! WE TRIED TO TALK HIM OUT OF IT AND HE SEEMED TO CHEER UP.
THEN, A FEW DAYS LATER WE GOT A CALL SAYING HE WAS BEING TAKEN TO ANOTHER EMERGENCY ROOM BECAUSE HE COULD NOT BREATHE. WE WAITED FOR THE CALL TO TELL US IT WAS OK TO GO SEE HIM. IT NEVER CAME. WHAT DID COME WAS A CALL SAYING HE DIED INSTEAD. APPARENTLY HIS STOMACH BLEW UP AND HIS HEART STOPPED. THEY WERE UNABLE TO RESTART IT. HE DIED OF SEPSIS BROUGHT ON BY THAT BITCH PUNCTURING HIS COLON. HE DIED ONLY SIX MONTHS AFTER BEING TOLD HE HAD CANCER. HE SHOULD STILL BE ALIVE!!!"

 

Please, I will do anything to prove this is real and not a scam. This is the most I

 can do for my Mom.

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jaydog2009  

About jaydog2009

Hi my name is Jay, My problems is not as bad as some people but I was hurt on the job and half my salary came from tips at my job. I just got some assistant with food, I going to need some help paying my rent. due november 1, $600.00...if anyone can give me a hand or can give me a number to a agency or something in those regards I would gladly APPRECIATED.

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ztworkinghard  

About ztworkinghard

I need serious help..i work full time have always had a job but made some bad decisions when i was younger and now my credit is so messed up and cant afford my bills..always overdrawing my bank account cant purchase a house im 23 and all my friends are buying homes...and me and my wife cant afford to do anything i caouldnt even take her to eat for her birthday..this life sucks and the stress it is putting on our new marriage is horrible..i know there are a lot of ppl struggling out there but i was just curious to see if i could recieve some help..i live in ohio..i have like $13,000 in cc debt...a 6,000 dollar personal loan that is now in collections i just dont know what to do...HELP ME PLEASE!!!!

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NYC  

Young man at the County's mercy, need help Please

My son broke his ankle about 2 years ago and had to go through the county, it took  a year to get his surgery by that time his bone had collasped and was dead, they manage to save his foot although he can not run or do heavy equipment work anymore. He has had no income for the past 2 years and was a stay at home Dad for his daughter. He now has found out that he has serious back problems from putting all his weight on one leg and also that his ankle is broke again. His live in girlfriend kicked him out and he has no income, he is 30 years old, he started back at the county clinic today and they gave him a referral to see a specialist in the county hospital. I am just afraid it will take a long time again as Harris county moves real slow. They also gave him prescriptions today and even though he has no income he had to pay 15.00 for them I know that does not sound like a lot of money, but to someone that has no money it is an aweful lot. Does anyone out there have some knowledge or info on some programs that might be available to him or where he can get some better medical help?  Any and all info would be greatly appreciated, like I said before he had to wait a year before finaly getting surgey and if he could of got his foot operated on right away he would of been ok today but they really did not think they could even save the foot because it had all colasped and the tissues had died do to the long wait. Any help would be appreciated.

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lilsurfergrl  

About lilsurfergrl

 i  had a job and i lost it because of my disabled and then a month later i found out i was pregnant  and on june 6 me and my boyfriend lost are apartment because we couldnt pay rent well my boyfriend got mugged that why we couldnt pay rent i been looking for a job and no lucky we  are looking for   an apartment but we dont have money to pay for in now i'm 11week pregnant and i'm 18 going on 19 this yr and we are living house to house intill we can get some money and so we can get an apartment it so hard being pregnant and looking for and job and for apatment and trying to found ride to take me to my appointment i dont know what to do i been parying and parying and having hope but lately i'm just take and i'm started to have no faith anymore
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tiffb01  

Desperate in love

I have been in a relationship for 7 years and prior to the relationship I was married and my husband left me for another woman and it caused me to go into a deep depression, So I met this person and he was so good to me for awhile until the real person came out and thats when it became a issue, And I found out about his drug problem and then he end up going to jail by that time I had already fell in love. About a couple of day after he went to jail I found out I was pregnant and to this day he still going to jail but I love him so much. Please someone tell me what do I need to do? Because I am tired of him leaving me and my kids but if I leave him I will be hurt and if I continue I will be hurt also and I am confused please someone help.

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Anonymous  

About pronoss

I am 31 years old from southern Georgia and currently disabled. I suffered a heart attack on April 20, 2007 and have been suffering from a ruptured disc in my lower back.

I have no insurance and my general doctor and cardiologist recommended me to apply for disability and are helping me try to obtain that help. I have been waiting for disability now since Feb 2006 when I was first diagnosed with my back problems. The doctors refuse to do surgery and anything other than basic care due to no insurance.

I have obtained a disability attorney but the latest news is it may be 13 months before a trial date. My current situation is my bills, Rent, Power, Phone and monthly doctor bills being my most basic of needs.

I do receive food stamps in the amount of $162 per month to eat on. It's a sad situation that my mother has been paying the bills using credit card mainly all this time since I became disabled, but now her credit cards are maxed and she is retired and on disability herself so her amount coming in isn't enough to cover our most basic bills nowdays and have resulted in trying to sell items and have yard sales to make ends meet.

For example my rent is $270/month my power bills run average of $180/month and my monthly doctor visits are $50/month with telephone bill at $40/month.

I have never done this before or been in this type of shape and I really do not know what to do. I have contacted our local department of family and children services which gave me the foodstamps but they tell me I do not quality for welfare since I am a single white male. So I do not know what to do.

I do get help with my prescriptions thanks to contacting the pharmaceutical companies and filing indigent patient forms and just for example the list of medications I do take at the moment are

for my Heart and hypertension
Plavix 1/day
Metoprolol 2/day
Altace 1/day
325mg aspirin 1/day
for my back
Oxycontin 2/day
Neurontin 1/day
and Xanax 2/day

I do require surgery on my back and I do have sleep apnea which I was diagnosed with when I was in the hospital during my heart attack but again with no insurance I cannot have a sleep study test done or purchase a CPAP machine.

If there is anyway out of the kindness of your heart you can find to send any help it would be greatly appreciated. Anything at all is helpful and if you can not then please keep me in your prayers.

Thank you for your time in reading this.

 

again thank you for your consideration and prayers

 

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candace4kids  

please doesnt seem to be the magic words anymore

my name is candace i am a single 29 year old mom with 4 young kids ages 5 thru 12..we have been through alot this year.we moved to a different town to escape an abusive situation full of drugs and violence...we were doing ok and i was a waitress making it for us..i was recently fired may 23rd.and we are very broke.bills rent and daily needs are not met. i do not qualify for cash assistance and child support comes few and far between.the shut off notices are rollin in and unemployment is only 60 a week due to the waitress wages here.every penny i get is a borrowed one and have no clue when i can pay our way or them back..finding a job is hard when i barely even have bus money..bottom line we need anything and everything right now..3 to 5 grand would put us right where we need to be..please if u can help let me know..i filled out grant forms already and i still havent heard anything...please if you can help us. thank you

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candace4kids  

candace4kids

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Reese4u  

Needs financial help, desperately....

Hello, my name is Reese and I am a single mother of four.  I was recently divorced and my ex-husband has my three youngest children, whom I haven't seen since August of '06.  Their ages are 3, 4 and 7; I miss them very much.  I can't afford to see them, as every bit of money I make working goes toward my bills and caring for my 9 year old son, who lives with me. I have rent, utilities, insurance, food costs, vehicle maintenance costs and child support that I pay all on my own. I do not and am not eligible to receive any kind state aid.  I do not receive child support. I make just enough to barely cover all my obligations. I just desperately want to see my children, so they don't forget me and thier brother.  I  live in Alabama and they reside in Ohio. The trip alone in gas money would cost $250 round trip, and another $100 in food costs for me and my son during the trip would be needed.

So you know more about me...I am 30 years old. I love to smile and spread joy to others, but lately I have been so dejected, that I feel like I am slipping into a depression. I feel that I am letting my kids down because I am not there for them. One of my wishes is to finish school and obtain a better job so that I may support my kids more than I'm able to now.  I am a part time student and I work full time. I will graduate with my B.S. in engineering in approx. two years. I have such high hopes and I pray everyday for God to make a way for me to be nearer to them. I'm up against more obstacles than I ever have been before. I am hurting so much inside. I don't have any other help...my family can't afford to help me at all. Please if you can help me, you may contact me at thisalln@yahoo.com. We can discuss my situation further.

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